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A Twist In My Story
By Secondhand Serenade
Fall For You ... an amazing love song, which is the song that my boyfriend says explains a bit of how he feels about me, but not fully, because he says he loves me more than a song could express.... but this song is the closest he's come to so far! <3
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okay so i know i haven't updated in quite a while... i feel like i've let y'all down. but with my moms cancer, things are kinda hard right now. i have my knight in shining armor, so thats totally getting me through everything... i mean, i'm even having best friend trouble. i feel like my worlds falling apart, and the only things i have left to hold onto are my Jesus, and my boyfriend. its crazy. but its my life. i will put quotes on here as much as i can, but for now i'm just uploading all the crazy icons i have collected over the years and then deleting them off my computer, cause i have like millions... literally. so its kinda slowing up my computer... so yeah. here they are! and crediting is useless, because i have no idea where these have come from, so there aren't any credits, but none of these were made by me! enjoy!  
here i am, all for you. i'm all yours, forever. i could give myself away to some other guy. someone cuter, or richer, or funnier, or happier. but i chose you. why? that's the question i haven't figured out yet. it could be your smiles, or your eyes, or the way you hold my hand or kiss me, or hug me and tell me you never want to let go. it's probably because nobody has ever loved me the way you do. 
   
i was always that girl that said it was stupid when couples said they loved each other. i was that girl that said they were being silly and immature and didn't know the first thing about love. i was that girl who said she wasn't going to fall in love at a young age because she knew she'd just get hurt. i was the one who would never say they loved their boyfriend because it was too drastic of a word. and you were that guy that made me realize i was never that girl.  
we have those inside jokes, those special moments, we say things nobody understands and laugh when they give us funny looks. if i were smiling on the outside, and crying on the inside, you'd be the one to hand me a tissue and say "don't even try to pretend" and watch me burst into tears. you're my late night phone call, my shoulder to cry on, you're my best friend.  
you're best friend loves me, you're mother loves me, you're little sister loves me, all your friends, and even our teachers love me.. so why don't you? 
i make mistakes, and so do you. mine just happen to be bigger and funner (: 
you are the reason for this smile on my face, please don't take it away. 
   I'm nowhere near perfect. I eat when I'm bored. I fall for boys too easily. I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I won't need to fake a smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I'm going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends and enemies. I have drama and memories. & I forget why I'm still here. Sometimes you have no idea.     
   
 
"run baby, run. don't ever look back, they'll tear us apart if we give them the chance." -we the kings  
 << watermelon phonee!! =)
you know life's funny that way, once you let go of the wheel, you might actually end up right where you belong 
 
Love is always patient and kind. It's never
jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish. It does not take
offense and it is not resentful.
( A Walk To Remember ) 
I was reminded today in a roundabout way that the most perfect act of love is sacrifice. It's what Keith did for Karen: burying his feelings for her all those years so he could be a good friend. I love you, Lucas, and I think I have since the moment we locked eyes. And it is going to suck, but if what you want is for me to let go, then I'm gonna do it. Be happy, Luke. I want that with all my heart.
( One Tree Hill )    
"i love how you kiss, i love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go 'round" -buckcherry  << favorite!!!
^^ this is sad, but gotta say... been there... been that sad little girl, wondering whats wrong with the world... 
^^ this is my boyfriend btw... so please dont take this photo!! =) lol Love will turn your world completely upside down. There's the physical stuff - your cheeks getting hot, the flutters in your stomach. And then there's the mental madness - you feel like you're losing your mind because all you can think about is the way they smell, how good it feels when they put their arms around you, or the cute little dimple they get when they smile. When you're with them, there's no other place you'd rather be; when you're not, you can barely wait until you see them again. Love is a total high - better than eating chocolate, acing a test, or scoring the winning goal.   
^^ this is a pic that i actually took, so no jocking here! my 4th of July pics ya know =) 
   
    
    
    
Love has its own time, season, and own reasons. You can't ask it to stay, you can only embrace it as it comes and glad that for a moment in your life it was yours.     
    
  
    
    
    
    
    
    
   
  
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
-"I'll Be"; Edwin McCain  
don't try to fit in, you might actually get recognized, for standing out. 
"take me with you
i will never let you down
i will love you
now and forever"
-- Take Me With You by Secondhand Serenade 
"wherever you go, no matter the weather, always bring your own sunshine" - anthony j. d'angelo 
i don't care who you are, in my eyes.. you're a star. look deep inside yourself and you will see, everything that you want to be. 
Him:: "Do you really not see how truly wonderful you are?"
Her:: "You only see me through your eyes though."
Him:: "But shouldn't that be all that matters?"
{{ Me && my bf's convo one time}} 
we used to be best friends, remember the memories, inside jokes, laughs and road trips? what happened to you?  
i see you changing for everyone you meet, and it makes me wonder "what were you like before you met me?" 
i see you changing for everyone you meet, and it makes me wonder "what were you like before you met me?" 
"it's not that i can't live without you, it's that i don't even want to try" 
^^ pop your collar, not a balloon!!! =) << yes that was made up by me!!! lol 
i just wanted to thank you. thank you for coming into my happy life, and somehow making it even happier. and i can't forget to thank you for then leaving and watching as my whole world came crashing down. you made me a stronger person. stronger in the sense that i don't trust anybody anymore. You made me smarter because now i know what makeup to put on in the morning to make it look like i didn't cry all night. you made me more patient because i waited all night for a phone call that never came. so yeah, thanks for all that. 
drugs? naw, i don't need them. i'm already high on life. alcohol? no way, me and my friends already act like a bunch of idiots and we can actually remember what made us pee ourselves. 
i'm so sick of love. not the feeling, but just the word. because i know you say you love me, but you probably just like me.. a little. 
" i was born to tell you i love you...
and its true I cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clear
if you could only see in the mirror what I see"
-- Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade 
it amazes me how one person could be so outstandingly perfect, even more than amazing. somebody who doesn't need the looks because their personality is already too good to be true, but they have them anyways. and it amazes me how that one person could love me more than anyone else they know. 
when i say you were my biggest mistake, i don't mean meeting you, or trusting you, or kissing you, or even falling in love with you. i mean letting you go 
i save all your voicemails not because what you say is important, or particularly interesting. no, i save them for the never-failing "i love you" at the end. 
you're perfect. you're that boy who's name i want written next to mine in a heart. my name and yours, they sounds so good together, don't they? 
it's not that i want you, because i really don't anymore. i just flat out need you. 
there are two dates on your tombstone, everyone will read them. but the only thing that matters is the little dash between them.  
here i am, all for you. i'm all yours, forever. i could give myself away to some other guy. someone cuter, or richer, or funnier, or happier. but i chose you. why? that's the question i haven't figured out yet. it could be your smiles, or your eyes, or the way you hold my hand or kiss me, or hug me and tell me you never want to let go. it's probably because nobody has ever loved me the way you do.  
i want you to stand up for me, punch out the guy that touches me. i want you to scream "i loove her!" i want you to do for me, exactly what you did for her. 
there could never be enough words to describe the way you make me feel. 
turn up the radio and sing your lungs out. because kid, this is it. and this is all it will ever be, so get used to it and suck it up, and live. 
We've got ambition like you've got restraint so
Smile like you don't give a damn about the consequence
Just say anything. We say summer holds such wonderful things. 
i'm crazy, i'm different, i laugh and cry too much. i'm clingy sometimes, independent others. i try to be " a little out of the box ", but still normal enough to be accepted. and even if i'm not? i don't care. i'm nice to everyone, or i try to be. i care too much and go out as often as i can. i take risks and scream when i do. i'm not as brave as i pretend to be. or maybe? i'm not any of these things - i can be anything you want me to be. It's a l w a y s times like these
when i think of you
and i wonder if you ever
think of me
cause everythings so wrong
and I don't belong
living in your precious m e m o r y   "cause if you jump, i will jump too. we will fall together." -we the kings you're always asking to hang out and i'm always coming up with excuse after excuse why i can't. not because i don't want to be with you, because that's what i want more than anything. but because i'm afraid that i won't be good enough for you. i'm not nearly as pretty, funny, or outgoing as those other girls you hang out with and i just don't want to disappoint you. when you feel like giving up, think of all the reasons why you held on for so long. it'd be perfect if you loved me, and i loved you. but that's just not gonna happen. no matter how much we want it. i don't love you. i never have, never will.. you mean a lot to me, but nothing like that. i would die without you, because you help me so much i call you all the time, not because i love you, but mainly because i need you. you're a very important part of my life, yeah. but so is he. and i know he's everything you want to be, but someday he'll leave me, and i'll be upset and down. and there'll you'll be, still in my life. he'll have to live without me, and you'll still be right there. i do love you, you're my best friend. and you'll always be the man that he can never be. i'm listening. start pouring your heart out sugar. i'm here now and that's all that matters, don't tell me i ditched you or left you behind. and don't even tell me that i don't care about you. because if i didn't care, i wouldn't be here right now waiting for you to spill your heart out to me. the world is a puzzle and we're two pieces that fit perfectly together. i love you today more than yesterday, but that's nothing compared to tomorrow. I know you mean it,
when you say you need me,
You say you won't leave me,
you'll always be here,
You won't regret it,
cause i'll never leave you,
And i won't deceive you,
i need you too  i still have these memories, but we will never see what we could have been. remember when we talked about where we would be a year from now? remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? remember because that is all you can do. we will never make another memory. this time i thought things were real, you said they were. what happened? you were a priority, was i an option? i let you see a side of me that i don't share with anyone. promises are just words unless they are fufilled.from the beginning all i had to offer you was my heart, i'm sorry that wasn't enough. so we will go our own ways, and hopefully you will remember the things i told you, hopefully you will understand that everything i said was in sincerity. a broken heart is not what i wanted from this, but i guess i've learned from it. but aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? i don't consider this a mistake, i just wish the story didn't end this way because i'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.  i waited three years for you. do you understand how much of my life that is? i didn't even look at a guy the same way i looked at you. i was hit on, and asked out, and i always said no or didn't even notice any of the other guys. i could be so happy with somebody else right now, so happy. but i'm not, i'm sitting here.. crying, because of that time i wasted on you. i thought we were going to have something, but all i got was a guy who only thought of me as his best friend, and a broken heart. {{^^ omg... this was totally me! EXACTLY!!!! but i've stopped crying, because i realized that the reason he didnt love me, was because God had someone else for me to love, who would love me even more than i could ever realize... he just wasn't right for me, and i totally realize this now, but i didnt then.}} love isn't blind, 'cause i knew it right when i saw you.  if i said you were perfect, that would be too much of an understatement. 'Cause our song is the slammin' screen doors
Sneakin' out late tapping' on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cuz it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is when he laughs
The first date 'man I didn't kiss him and I should have'
Then when I got home 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if he could play it again..
-"Our Song"; Taylor Swift "You know when you listen to music playing from another room? And you're singing along because it's a tune that you really love? When a door closes or a train passes by so you can't hear the music anymore, but you sing along anyway...then, no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again, you're still in the exact same time with it. That's what love is like." "That's why they call them crushes.
If they were easy, they'd call them something else."
--sixteen candles run baby run
don't ever look back
they'll tear us apart
if you give them the chance
don't sell your heart
don't say we're not meant to be
run baby run
forever will be
you and me
--"Check Yes Juliet"; We The Kings ^^ from the All-American Rejects music video where they did the whole postcards thing... i forget which song it was though. sorry. =) it was odd; his eyes met with mine and we didn't look away. for a moment caught in this awkward staring glance like thing, and then he did the most amazing thing when he looked away.
he smiled. He's my superhero, my one and only, my knight in shining armor, my boyfriend, my lover, my support, my antidrug, my reason to wake up, my voice to fall asleep to, my wonderful, amazing, gorgeous, fantastic, loving, memoery making, s o u l - m a t e . ( And he loves me more than I could ever know.) <3 ^^ this has become what i tell people about him when they ask who he is. =) well... i hope y'all liked it! it took me over 4 hours to put this stuff on there, and this isn't even the half of it! =) i'll be back a.s.a.p. with more & more & more!!!!!!!! so yeah... but it is past midnight, so i gotta go! plus, i was killing time until my boyfriend got off work and called, and whaddya know? he's calling me right now! & of course I answer... lol =) so COMMENT please, because this took me f o r e v e r !!!!!!!!!!!! so feedback would be muchly appreciated!!! love y'all! xox, *Manders!!* |
